Subject: Prana

I use softdrugs now for about 4 years on a daily base. Started in 1991 it leaded to a pretty 
nice thing to be away from the things. In june 1994 i've had a paranoia/fear psychose which is 
supressed with medication. I stopped the medication in march 1995 and the psychose started 
again. During the second/recidive/chronical psychose there is a neurose triggered from when i 
was about 2 years old. Since I know about the neurose i've the idea that 'the driving force' of 
the psychose is gone. And I'am still using softdrug. Life has become a lot easier since then.I 
have been under treatment by a psychiatrist on a weekly base during all those years. Thanks 
whoever invented softdrugs. I never should (or is it would?) have know what was wrong with me. 
(I used harddrugs when i was 16/17 for about two years)

I read some stuff around about drugs and there is a lot of noncence about drug. Yes, you can 
become paranoia of softdrug but you must have a certain predisposition in your personality, due 
to an neurose or something like that. In other words you are (almost) a client of the 
psychiatrist before you even start with using drugs.And drugs (maroc) does not affect the 
quality of the sperm. After using years of drugs, my wife was pregnent in the second month.

I live in the netherlands so it is easy to get drugs. And the psychiatrist is very tolerant 
about my use of drugs. I do think about quitting because i want to stop smoking.